First up, I have a confession to make. I am more touchy than I would like to believe.  That is why when I saw some comments that annoyed me I deleted the whole post.

 Ek do baar, “sex” kya kah diya, I am thought of as some sexual deviant, sex addict or something. I forgot that we Indians are still a very conservative race. And maybe nice girls don’t talk about sex. We women are supposed to be a de-sexed lot. Guys are the ones with the “need”. I felt very irritated with the supposedly well-meaning advice on how to manage my “urges”. 

I am yet to learn to take criticism. I like to think of myself as a very tolerant person, but after this episode, I think I need some lessons in tolerance, myself. Every one is entitled to their own thoughts and principles. I might not agree with them. Some might even make me angry.  But I need to try and be more tolerant of the viewpoints of other people.

I shall be turning a year older in a week’s time.  Perhaps this is a good time to access my life. Think about what I want to do with the rest of my life. “Where do you see yourself 5 years from now? “ This is a pet question in interviews and job application questionnaires. I try and run away from such questions. In fact, during the summer placements in MBA, I had not applied to one of the big MNCs just because they had a thick booklet with similar questions to fill up. I wonder why I dislike thinking that far ahead in the future. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that many times my best laid plans get crushed by circumstances beyond my control.

I know, that is no excuse for not making plans. If I do not know where I want to go, I shall probably end up somewhere. Maybe that “somewhere” is a place I don’t want to be in. I know that in life there are no certainties. Still, one should have goals and try to reach them. To the best of ones abilities. Nahin to jeene mein kya mazaa hai. Being the pucca Gemini that I am, I have to say this as well. There is a saying “ If you want to make God laugh, show him your plans”. See, making plans is pointless.

Jokes apart, I have seriously started thinking about my life. Not just the present, but many years down the line. It is difficult for me because I have always resisted doing that. But I am giving it my best shot. Maybe I will even write it down somewhere, like one of my friends suggested.  Let’s hope that this year not be a good year, it will be a great year for me. Cheers to that.